Rock, drugs and alcohol.

My father used to collect salsa vinyls. I remember some family parties, sometimes our family members, uncles for example, used to obligated us to dance with them. In our house we had always a good radio, it has cassette players, cd player, with big speakers to play music. My parents were kinda nomads, we lived in different neighborhoods in the same city. Music is part of our life and culture. I remember we lived in the same house with another families. A young guy was one of our neighbors, he was having some rock vinyls, that was the first time I heard rock music in Spanish. Immediately I felt attracted to this music and I wanted to know more about it. 

Some years later, I learned how to use the radio. My sister and me, we were long hours alone in the house, my parents were working all day. I started listening the radio and there were a few hours in some radio stations they were playing rock music. We could only listen music when my parents were not at home.  When I was in high school and in the neighborhood, I met some people that liked rock music too. The way we learn about another bands was exchanging music. We were making copies in cassettes at home, this was before we had cable television and we were able to see which bands were popular internationally. 

Alcohol was always present in the family parties. I tried when I was a kid but I didn't like the taste. We drank a good amount for first time with some kids of my neighborhood, I was around 13 years old. I can say that was the first drug I tried but I started drinking heavily when I was 17 years old. When I was 19 years old, I met this guy that liked rock music too. He was having a car, he used to go to pick me up in my house, we went to buy Rum and cocaine every Friday,.We went to rock bars, that was the second drug I tried. When the effect of the cocaine is gone, it made me feel horrible and guilty. 

I stopped hanging out with him when I met another person that become my boyfriend. I quit cocaine but I continue drinking and smoking cigarettes. My boyfriend liked to smoke weed. He insisted and wanted to see how I act when I get high, I denied for years to do it. One day I was like ok, let's do it. I am the most boring person to be around when I smoke weed, I don't talk and I just want the effect finish soon. Definitely it is not my thing. I went camping with him to an area where magical mushrooms grow up. I still love the effect of mushrooms. I don't do it now just because it is not easy to get it. I did try it in different occasions, but not frequently.

The first concerts I went, I won tickets in a radio station. When I started working finally I got some money to go to concerts. I had a good experience with acid, similar to mushrooms but lower effect and chemical drug during electronic music concerts. I tried ecstasy and MDMA but my experience with it was horrible. I was feeling like I was going to have a heart attack. 

The first thing I did after experimenting was quit smoking. The last drugs I mentioned, I tried it once and never again. I tried weed in different occasions, once was a small piece of brownie during my trip in Colorado. I had the same effect, I stayed alone in my bedroom, I didn't wanted to talk with people, I was drinking a lot of water to hope to help the effect disappear sooner. I quit all the drugs, I had some years without drinking alcohol, no beers either.

After I move to another city, once a friend invited me to go with her to share time with her office coworkers. They were drinking Whiskey, I don't drink heavy drinks when I am going to meet new people. I drank one beer and the owner of the house bring some snacks in the table to share. He put some chocolates on the table too, I put one in my mouth, when I started chewing it I felt like a grass taste. I asked him, what is on it?, he said, "it is an oil I am experimenting with, but I am trying to figure out how much amount to put in the chocolates". I immediately told to my friend to take me home. When I was opening the door of my house, I started feeling the effect. I was high during two days, not being able to cook or do my normal activities. The guy asked my phone number to my friend the next day, I blocked him. 

One day after moving to this new city, I felt so lonely. I decided to go to a rock bar. In my mind I was having a plan of what I was going to drink. I order one glass of Whiskey, I ate some food and I sat alone in the bar. A group of guys were sitting in the bar too, they send me a couple of beers and I accepted it. A live band started playing, I stayed longer than what I planned at the beginning. The singer of the band invited me to dance with her in the top of the bar, I am not shy, so I did it. I got more drinks invited and then I don't remember the rest of it.

When I woke up I was in my house, sleeping on the couch, a girl called me and told me the rest of the story, she wanted to know if I was fine. I spend a whole day trying to find my keys, I put myself in risk and fortunately nothing bad happen and I learned my lesson. Now the only drug that I drink is beer, no more drinking heavily. Now I enjoy the taste of a beer, not the effect. 

About the rock music, I still love it. Also I like experimental rock and fusion. I went to so many concerts and have great memories from it. I travelled to see bands that I like, I felt lucky to be able to see some bands that dissapear (Soundgarden, The prodigy, Crystal castles for example). I like some new bands too and recently I got some vinyls and started collecting cassettes. This remind me to my father hehe. 

I drink very occasionally, not much, not alone and in safe company.

When the virtual cross to real

Some members traveled to Colombia and I met them here. Other times I met when I traveled to their country. It is complicated because not all the people act the same way. Some members are hoping to find love and others just want to meet up with a good friend.

The first member I met, travelled to Colombia since he comes here frequently and he invited me to get lunch. He was a regular in my chat room. During lunch he told me he's the owner of a studio of cam models in Colombia and when he noticed I was not interested in working for him, he stopped going to my chat room.

The second member I met, was a regular for years in my chat room. His interest was traveling to other countries and he wanted to meet local people before going to a country. It is a good idea to contact locals before going to a country because the locals know more about their country than a tourist. We met and he was nice to me and we continued to keep in contact. The second time he came to Colombia we traveled together and we went to explore a part of Colombia I never went before. He was here a lot of times, I saw him in his third trip to Colombia one night. We went to a club and I stayed only a couple of hours. When he was here the fourth time, he asked me for help to save money. He was in another city in my country and his plane from my city going back to his country was going to be two days later. I left him stay in my place for a couple of nights. We had some arguments and we never talked after that anymore. 

The third and fourth member I met was from date raffles. I did the first date raffle with three other models. The person who won was not a regular of mine. I saw him but we didn't talk. I met the fourth member when I went to the caribbean with another model and we had a great time there. It was such a cool trip. We are still friends even though he's not coming to MFC much anymore, but we do keep in contact. 

The fifth member I met, went to a convention in Colombia I was at as well. He was one of my first regulars. He doesn't come to my chat room now, but sometimes he enters to say hi. He has his own project and tries to contact models to work with him. He offered me to work for him, but I was there only a few days and I wanted to enjoy the place so work was not on my plans during that trip.

The sixth member I met, I love him, he knows it, and we are good friends. I went to another city in my country for a weekend. One night I went for a walk at night and I entered a restaurant. I was sitting outside, looking at the people crossing and walking around the neighborhood. I saw someone who looked like one of my regulars but I was not sure, so I went out and I stood in front of him waiting to see if he recognized me. He was there with a friend. Then two friends of mine that were found us and we went to party. It was a fun night. 

During my trips I saw a few more of my regulars. I never do a plan of a trip because I like to explore places and I prefer to not be influenced by blogs and guides. Sometimes my trips change completely and I go to places I was not expecting to go during my trip. I hope people can understand this. If I was in your city, or close to it and I didn't see you, it happens. One member who came to Colombia invited me to get lunch with him. I didn't want to go alone and I told him so. He got mad with me because I didn't accept going alone. I decide when I want to meet a person, it is not an obligation, don't feel bad if I don't or if I couldn't.

I want to continue traveling, but it is a risk to meet someone. You have to know someone enough to let him meet you, evil people exist too. There are emotions and expectations from both sides. It can be a wonderful moment between us or it could be a deception. I've had some of the best days of my life, days I will never forget. We are on the other side of the computer, we play a character on the internet. It doesn't show enough about how we really are. There are members I have never seen a picture off, I don't even know how they look. 

In January I went to AVN las vegas, I shared some time with two of my regulars, I met new people and it was a cool experience. Staying there one week was not enough, it was too short a time. It is a shame I couldn't spend more time with my friends.

I tried last mont to do a date raffle, it was the first time I did one alone. Meeting someone is a great experience, but I felt like I was so open to meet people without asking tokens for a date. Unfortunately, not many people participated on it. I had a goal, it was not something impossible but I didn't achieve it. I don't know if you understand my point, I don't want to be evil, I believe I am not, but I have to change the open option I had to meet people. 

Anyways, I had a cool time with the people I met, there are wonderful friends and I want to say thanks to all the people that are still interested in me. Thank you for all the love, company and friendship. I don't know if I will try to do another date raffle again, but for now it is the only way to meet me or see me again until I decide on another option.

What do you think about meeting a cam model or member? Are you afraid to meet? What do you expect when you meet her or him?

Why cam model?. Second and last part.

If I say exploring my own sexuality was the reason I started camming, it would be a lie. My sexual life didn't start in the best way; sexual harassment, rape, and violence happened. I continued my life and I left those things behind me. My past is part of my formation, it makes me the person I am now. I am not embarrassed for the stuff that happened in my life. All of it is part of a process, you can't forget but you have to continue. Now I am like a child combined with a strong woman.

I work only in myfreecams. From the websites I saw, I can say I like this one more, because there are real women and gentlemen, not only interested in sexual interactions. I feel it is more real and human. You can get a friendship with a model or member.

Camming gives me the opportunity to meet people from around the world. I found people who have similar tastes, share movies, music, ideas and experiences. I make people feel better with themselves  and they make me feel better with myself. It is difficult to meet them all in person, I only have one life, the world is huge. But finding people who listen to you, that show interest in your life, understand your fears and give you advice, people that try to make me happy, they offer good company and friendship. I would not change it for anything.

This is my only job now. I am a independent person and I decide my time for work. Working is not only my time online because I have another social media stuff. I work out, take care of myself and I have to look good, it is part of it. I have to learn about the world. Where is a country, a state or a city located? What is their culture?  Not everything is about sexuality, at least in MFC. You need to be smart, study and learn from people.

Always we feel complex with our body, I have it too. I noticed that since becoming a cam model, I started to feel better in my body. Working out not just for vanity, I do it because I live of this. I know myself more as a person. I learn to take care of myself and love me. Now I explore new ways of getting pleasure. My self esteem and my confidence are better and I lost the fear to talk with new people ( I am shy, believe it or not). To my friends, I always say to them that they do not have to feel bad with their bodies. Everybody search different characteristics in a person and not all of us like the same people.

Not everything is wonderful. The decision to work as a cam model resulted in a filter with the people in my life. I stopped talking to some family and friends, no social media, no Facebook. I have to hide my family and friends from members. Only a few of my friends still don't know what my job is. I can't talk openly about my job in public places. Some members are stalkers, one of them found my Facebook when I still had an account, I never told him my real name. He entered in my chat room and wrote my real name in a pm window, hoping to threaten me with it. It was annoying, I feel sorry for him.

I know some cam models, thanks to the website I work with. They are women like me, who like to help each other. We do not see them as a competitor, we see them as another person in the same position. We support and love each other. I actually live with another models a roommate.  It is good to have someone in my home to talk about my day and make her feel better when she didn't have a good day. We have bad days too, but we try to show a smile to make you feel better if you had a bad day.  Models: it is important to support each other, we are not competition, each one of us is completely different.

I have no regrets, I am aware  I am getting older, there are a lot of younger, new and beautiful models, so many options for members. But I know who I am and camming helped me to make my goals in life possible.

This community has open the doors to give and receive love from other people, it is wonderful.

Why cam model?

Somebody asked me about this on my blog. I remember when I was kid, I liked to watch a TV show called "El mundo al vuelo con Hector Mora". It was a Colombian TV show about traveling.  At that time we did not have cable to watch international TV shows. Seeing the world was always my dream, it started in my childhood, but I didn't know much about the reality at that age.

When I finished school, the responsibility for my parents finished. They didn't have enough money to pay for a university degree. I have two sisters, I never imagined I was going to enter to a university. I had a lot of jobs. What I was getting paid, wasn't enough to continue my education. It was enough for pay the bus, buy clothing and other basic stuff. I entered a program from the government, they were giving photography classes for only 20 people. I was lucky to get on it. We just had to go to classes, they gave us all the materials to study, a development laboratory, chemicals, machines, photographic paper, one good teacher. I finished it, and I got a certificate for my studies.

I continued having different jobs, then my sister told me she wanted to help me to get a university degree. She helped me with it and I decided to study graphic design. I was studying during the day, from 7 am to 5 pm, Monday to Friday. I had a class on Saturday morning at 7 am. At the same time, I had a job as a waitress, my work schedule from Thursday to Saturday : 6 pm to 3 am, Sunday from 11 am to 7 pm. I did my homework in what little free time I had, lol. The day after I graduated, I got a call from another place to work as a waitress for a better salary, working from Tuesday to Sunday during the day, my day off was usually Monday. I did not have time for anything, my work schedule was between 11-13 hours, more money, less time.

During that time of my life, I had a relationship of 10 years. When I finished the university, I moved to live with him, my salary was for our expenses. Suddenly a lot of stuff happened at the same time.  I lost my job and I moved to live with my sister, she found me a job being an assistant in a studio for cam girls. Thats when I started watching what cam girls do, how much they get paid and I wanted to do that also. My first step was to learn English. I didn't finish my lessons, I stopped studying when I felt I was ready to talk with a person in English. I watched a lot of models camming, but it is a waste of time to copy their ideas and watch them. I am unique, nobody is like me. I decided to just be myself.

I was so shy when I started camming, I made a lot of mistakes, which is good, you learn from it. After two years, I was doing much better. That is when I started making my dream come true; traveling. Camming in Colombia made me decide between two options, be the woman a guy want to stay with or make my dreams come true. Some people judge me without knowing what I do online, and they really don't have idea of how happy I am. It is not easy to find someone who is comfortable with life choice I made. Yeah, I am naked on the internet and it feels great to share who I am and my sexuality.

I am my own boss. I met a lot of wonderful people that are now a part of my life, I have a group of friends who tip me because they appreciated me, love me. They know they can count on me and I can count on them. I show my appreciation to each  and everyone. It is not just about the money. There are members I met in person. Some of them aren't big tippers and we are good friends. Some of them leave, fall in love with another woman or just get tired of how I take refuge in myself. They can count on me when they want to be back in my life.

I can continue making my dream come true, traveling and working and it is wonderful :)

Open my cam bb

Privates, those minutes you share with a person and which you will never forget. Every person is a world, I had some memorable privates with members, accidents and fails. These examples are taken out of context:

1. A member was looking at me from his office. I don't remember what I was doing at the time. He decided to take me in private. He requested me to open his cam. He then closed the door of his office, took a pillow from the couch and put it on the floor next to the door. Then he went for his laptop, lowered his pants down to his knees and sat on the pillow leaning against the door. He was masturbating while looking at me, when suddenly somebody pushed the door partially and looked inside, this person told him something while he ran to turn off his computer.

2. I will never forget this guy. He asked me a lot of questions. He told me he wanted to come to my country to meet me in person. It was his first time in my room. He came into my room like three times after this. He took me to private, and when I opened his cam, I asked him if he could show me his room because it was peculiar. The walls and curtains color were pink.The furniture is old style with a single bed, and in the background there was a collection of old and different sizes of dolls, none of them were dressed. The dolls looked dirty, some with their eyes damaged. This guy in front of his dolls being part of the scene. Everything was dirty and old.It looked like a scene from a horror movie and there I was, with a poker face, trying to enjoy the private.

3. One of those guys who tip for opening his cam while I am in public chat.  I was making my poker face while I was watching this. He had something made of metal tied to his balls and penis. He was pulling it and asking me if I liked that.  Then he turned around and showed me his ass. He took one anal toy and put it inside him. I stopped looking after that, lol.

4. This guy, he paid me for opening his cam while I was in public chat. He told me to put my clothes on to take me in private, which I did. When the private started, he showed me the place where he was. It was a big house with a garden. He was in a family party. I made them believe I knew him and I was his friend. He showed me all the people around, then he tried to be sneaky and went straight to the bathroom. He took off his clothes, and so did I. Then he sat on the floor leaning against the toilet. I could hear people knocking on the door while we were busy. He was yelling at them to make them go away.

5. This happened to me twice. Usually I have cramps before my period start. I feel pain first, and one or two hours later, I start bleeding. Around those days I feel so horny. One guy took me to private. I was enjoying myself when he told me to stop. When I looked down, I saw my blood. He closed the private and he never came back. The second time it was in public chat. That day when I logged off, I cried a lot. It made me feel so bad, because it is so uncomfortable, I mean, it is not how a person make you feel, it is just how my body react during those days.

6. One guy took me to private and his first request, open my cam bb. There was his girlfriend laying in bed.His intention was to get a threesome.It made him happy turning her on. He told me to turn her on. Just imagine this situation, trying to turn on a person who is straight and from your same gender. In situations like this, I don't know what to do, I just did what I do normally. Maybe she was jealous to share him with another girl, I'm just guessing.

7. One of my regulars, he used to open his cam while I was online. He likes it when I watch him. He just works on his computer, no nakedness, no masturbating. I don't open many cams while I am in public chat, only one and I watch it. For him it was normal to open the cam, once he forgot he was having his camera on. I saw him arguing with his wife :O

We have so many request from members, each person is completely different. I bet other models can tell some crazy stories too, I would like to hear them.

Pleasure objects

The girls who say I never masturbate, well, did u get a shower?  It is not intentional when you start to feel some pleasure rubbing your pussy, all of us masturbate in different ways. It is not a taboo anymore, so now I feel free to talk about my own experience.

 My mother was so busy working during my childhood, and while I was teenager that she didn't take the time to explain us how to explore and take care of our own sexuality. I learn a lot of things from television, friends and exploring myself while I was teenager. I had a tv in my room, it was supposed my time for sleep was 9 pm, but I was awake late to see the tv shows of adults with the sound off.  When I was 12 years I started humping pillows, arm chairs and I had pleasure doing it. At 14 years one guy asked me if I was virgin, I didn't understand the question and a female friend responded for me, she explain me what it means. My first kiss was at 15 years, so different the time when I grow up than the actual life of teenagers.

I grow up in a religious country, in the school we were not having a class about sexuality, the government decide which classes we are going to see in school. I had a class of it the last two years of high school, it was between my 16-17 years, but the class was about reproductive system and planning methods. Don't judge me for learn all the sexuality information so late, I was not the good looking girl in the school. When I started my sexual life, I noticed I don't like when a guy do fingering to me, it hurt me. My opinion is not based from one guy, I don't feel pleasure when a guy touch my pussy with his fingers, probably there are another girls who doesn't like it either.

When I started camming is when I started using dildos and vibrators, I think the perfect dildo doesn't exist still. I try to buy a different one every time I can, but with diferent materials and textures. I saw when some dildos of different materials are together, some of them melt. How can something like that be safe to put inside your body?

I love vibrators, it is a complement with the dildo. There are plenty options for vibrators, the ohmybod, lelo and hitachi. I didn't try a sybian, I bet it is a strong vibration, well it looks like, I didn't see one in person. I know some guys love to see us just playing with dildos, but when I use a vibrator, it feels like when someone give you oral pleasure matching with penetration. The bad thing about it is, if I use it so much, I lost my sensibility. Like I am still looking for the perfect dildo, I do a combination of dildos to get the climax, starting with one soft and small, then I use the next size a little harder and at the end one glass dildo. The glass dildo doesn't give me the option to change position, because it is not flexible. If you are traveling,  a pillow will be effective always!! :D

What is your favorite object?. Is there something I should try without hurt myself or getting an infection? 

The hungry ones

I consider myself a good friend. I love helping people with their goals, sometimes I don't expect to receive a part of money when I work with another model, if she pay me , cool!! I mean if it is just for fun, it depends of what we do. I try to take part of my time to share with them outside of cam, give them advice and recommendations, I said the truth when they asked me something. I can't complain about how I do it camming, I don't consider myself the best cam model, I try to do my best, it give me enough for live decent and get a part for travel,  not with luxury, I am a backpacker.

I can't be the kind of person who say lies to a member to get tips, I saw a lot of hearts broken for it. I think in the person who is in the other side, it is a person like me, hoping to get and find love, company. It is cruel when someone give you illusions and then when they can't handle all the lies, they have to say the truth without think in the consequences.

This is my job, I depend on it. I can say the lies are not necessary, your friends will support you no matter if you have a boyfriend, husband, girlfriend. I love each one of my regulars and they know how I am. We are adults and we take our own decisions when we write something on internet. I don't blame the models who say lies to members to get tips, they have the mistake to think thats necessary to get money to eat, sometimes when models cam together they meet the members of the other model and their hunger for money makes them forget the friendship and honesty.

I saw it lots of times, models who jump in our friends for tips, some who prefer to lost a good friend thinking they can be owners of a member. I have bad days too like all of you, but I prefer to be away from the hungry people. Members are not innocent either, they take their decision about where they want to spend time, they know inside their hearts what's the truth. they should not repeat the same mistakes either.

I am happy I have great friends on MFC, they love me and accept me how I am. I'm happy to get in my life a lot of good girls who love to help and support each other, when they are happy to see you are doing good, without jealousy or envy, I have good friends now and  I am happy to take the decision to be away of the hungry ones.


If a person follow you , it is because that person love you.